As I ponder all that has happened this past year, I find my mind searching to discover a theme of what the Lord has been working in my life.
What circumstances has He brought about to develop my character?
What testings has He brought about to increase my faith?
What provisions has He provided to prove His faithfulness?
What acts has He performed displaying His loving-kindness?
And what is the central theme these would all point their fingers towards?
Here are my gleanings:
2014 ended with a split in the church that my family and I had been serving at very actively for 10+ years. Although the Lord was a very present comfort to me during this time, this event left part of me (and many others), broken.
The dawning of 2015 brought much healing in our church family – and in my own heart, but many of the relationships that I had held so very close were forever altered.
In many ways I had to learn to let go of what was.
In April I had a miscarriage.
This forced me to cry out to the Lord and trust in His plan in a way I had yet to experience. The night it happened was one of the greatest emotional and spiritual struggles I’ve ever known. One minute I was asking the Lord for His good and perfect will to be done; the next I was begging Him to not take the child away from me.
Again, it was an opportunity for me to learn to let go of my own desires and trust His plan. I now take great comfort in knowing this child is safe in His arms.
Then, in mid June my husband accepted a job in Idaho – somewhere we’ve been talking about moving to for years. Which meant packing up our lives in our hometown in California and saying goodbye.
Goodbye to friends and family.
Goodbye to our church and ministries.
Goodbye to people we’ve spent a lifetime building relationships with.
Goodbye to a place we know and in which we are known.
I believe much of what had happened earlier this year was meant as a tutor for this moment.
Learning to let go is the theme I have gleaned for 2015.
However, it seems as though the Lord would not have me let go of these details of my life if He was not wanting me to embrace something new.
Although the new year has yet to make it’s appearance, the Lord has shined a shimmer of light on what He has prepared for my family and I.
I believe 2016 will usher in a time of embracing the new. I’m excited to share with you some exciting things happening in the near future for my family… but that is for another post. 🙂
But no matter what the next year holds, I know His goodness and love will follow me through – just as it always has.
How about you?
Can you glean a theme from your 2015?